they say every big journey begins with a single step. or something like that. anyway, for most of my life, every big journey has begun with a wonderfully delicious date with something incredibly unhealthy. do normal people make decisions without consulting krispy kreme?
this time, this time is different. my weight has been a struggle on and off my whole life. i had a skinny period in high school. but it didn't last long. ok, let's be honest. i spent a year sipping almost all my calories. thank you slim fast. once i introduced solid food again, the weight came back and then some. in 3 years time, i gained 70 pounds. and by the time i graduated college, i was over 200 pounds. at 5'1", that's some serious weight to lose. then i decided, after consulting duncan hines, of course, that it was time to have 2 children in 2 years.
so here i sit, after 2 ceseareans, with a nicely depressing number taunting me everytime i step on the scale, and wondering just what in the hell am i going to do!? both pregnancies were laden with health problems- including gestational diabetes. i also have PCOS (google it if you aren't familiar, it's a bowl of freaking cherries, really), i am insulin resistant, carbohydrate sensitive, i have high cholesterol, and am depressed/anxious constantly. so here i am, staring down the barrel of a serious problem.
clearly, i'm too lazy to do any of the hard work associated with losing weight the old fashioned way (insert huge eye roll here. i have, in fact, tried everything from the grapefruit diet to hours in the gym with a personal trainer. my metabolism is just screwed at this point) i already have some insight into the battle i am about to fight. i know the stigma associated with WLS, and at this point, i just don't care.
see, i know people talk shit bc im fat and they will talk shit about how i lose the weight. i'm realistic here. i also know that it is not going to be easy. that this isn't a short cut. and i am ready to take the leap. without consulting ben and jerry's first.
tomorrow, i am going to the WLS seminar. tomorrow, i am taking the first step.
LOL at the 'consultations' you've had with various pastries! Its a great first step. Here's a sneak peek: I just spent 9 days at my parents house -- a known weight-loss sabatoge locale -- and literally did not even THINK about 'eating right'. I threw caution to the wind and didn't get on a scale. I didn't exercise ONCE. But thanks to my lap-band, I am physically able to eat SO LITTLE that I gained a measly 2 pounds. And between you and me, I'm almost 100% sure that is all alcohol induced. I'm back to the gym today, getting back on the scale every day and down to normal bandster eating again so I'm sure it will fall right off. But isn't it great to know that even when I go off track for a few days, thanks to the band, the train doesn't derail completely? Good luck lady!! PM me any time.
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